Tears for fears

Sadness was a veil that
Covered my light
Then slowly but surely
The world just opened up
I could feel
I could see
Comfortable numbness to conscious awareness
Tears washed away the pain
Until one day
I caught myself smiling
For no particular reason
Except to know my light was shining once again

Tears wash away grief  and for the most part our tears come from a sense of loss we have no control over. However, sometimes our tears come from a place of concsiously letting go.

Some of the patterns and thoughts we develop over our lifetime may not be very positive and as we awaken to this awareness, it can feel like we are not sure what might work in their place. They are like a pair of old slippers that we know we must throw out, but there are so darn comfortable. What if there isn't  another pair to replace them- then what?

In these moments, we are moving to a different level and the response may be some confusion and even teariness. It's scary to realize you have to find a new way to approach that which has not served you, especially if a particular pattern is a long standing.

Peeling back another layer of ourselves can be a painful process where the release of tears can be very therapeutic. The good news is that once we have grieved a part of ourselves to the darkness, we see the light. One the other hand,  there is no ending to the number of layers there are to peel. However, it does get easier to recognize when you are "molting" and the tears become a way to find your smile again.