I recently realized my passion was yoga- not doing headstands and handstands, but the bigger picture of posture, breathing, meditation, yamas, niyamas and more. It is a way of life, a way to realize awareness of the mystery. Having embraced this passion, I find my desire for the romantic passion that has burned in me since I can remember has dwindled from a roaring fire to a gently burning candle. Both can create light, but the fire that was burning consumed too much fuel, to much energy and was likely so hot that no one wanted to get near for fear of being burned. A candle still has the ability to cause a spark, but all I need do is check that the flame has not been extinguished and I am able to devote more of my energy to other areas of my life that are calling to me now.
I want to bring yoga into the lives of my friends, coworkers, strangers- anyone who is willing to step on the mat and see what yoga can do for them. I want to use my 25 years of nursing experience to create a wellness coaching business and bring my knowledge of spritual healing into the lives of those who have not been able to get well through traditional western methods eg pills!
So how does this connect with romantic passion you ask? I have been both the recipient as well as the creator of a "needy" relationship. I believe my neediness was the result of trying to make someone else my passion. It doesn't work, it scares people away . I know as I have felt it from others. However, I believe that when two people who are passionate about something come together, that neediness does not take over and they can enjoy each others's euthusiam for what makes their heart sing while feeling fulfilled with their own interests. And that makes a relationship that is much more likely to succed in the long term.
How will I know if I am right? I don't, I just have faith that my path is taking me in a new direction and I just never know who I will meet along the way. In the meantime, I have so much to do!
